Emancipate

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emancipate (n.)
            
to free from restraint, control, or power of another;
to free from bondage

Only a few weeks left before January 1st and my emotions are in a whirlpool of different food coloring, meaning they are in a mess. 

I am honestly both afraid and excited for the coming of 2014. Mainly because this year I turned 13, what more next year? I'll be older, bringing extra doses of responsibilities, expectations, adventures, and opportunities - especially, photography opportunities. 

Based on all the chances I ignored and ideas I suppressed, I lack a great amount of confidence in myself and in what I can do because I am afraid.

I am scared of being judged, ridiculed, compared to, disliked, criticized, and neglected. I am scared to take risks and try new things. 

This fear is keeping me restrained. It is keeping me stagnant and overly cautious. And I am sick of it. 

I wish to emancipate myself from fear that keeps me bound to the walls of my comfort zone.

P.S. On a lighter note, the string I intended to cut, the one that symbolizes 'fear', is actually taped to our ceiling with masking tape. It was pretty fun to set up for this photo - the thread and such - and also refreshing to overcome my initial fear of my family finding out.